29/1/2026 - i remembered recently an essay i really liked from when i was in high school doing college applications (so like a decade ago wtf)... i liked it so much i saved it to a google doc when i found it back then. i can't remember if it was my friend who had shown me this site at the time but that's how i'm remembering it and that feels correct... but i wonder if it's where my like for making garden of eden references in all of my stories comes from. i reread it just now and i still like it a lot.

22/1/2026 - i rewatched the night is short walk on girl with sarita and william ytd and there was a convo i had last year where i was describing the scene where the main character drinks cocktails and i said she enjoys them as if they were jewels.. and when i was rewatching the movie there was a scene where she describes drinking cocktails bc they remind her of jewels. i totally forgot she said that, i thought i had come up with that imagery on my own. so interesting how i had no recollection whatsoever but clearly that comparison stood out to me so much it buried itself in my mind!!

12/1/2026 - met up with my sister after work at a bookstore and the moment i found her in the store and went over anti-romantic started playing on the speaker. we were both so surprised it was funny. then thursday's child played but it was really that first surprise that was the treat. txt-ful year already!

11/1/2026 - there was a guy busking while i was waiting on the train and it sounded really good. but there was also a girl crouching on the phone a bit in front of him and she was bawling to whoever she was talking to. like really crying so strongly. it was such a weird contrast, like he just kept singing this really good song and it was drowning out her crying a bit. it was like a moment when you remember just how much another person is a whole other life with their own things going on. he packed up a bit before my train came and i didn't have a dollar so i went over and told him that it was really good and he thanked me and said that was very kind of me to come over and say. then when i saw my train coming i finally decided to ask the girl if she was okay and she said she was fine so i just got on my train...